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What do the People whose 99 weeks of Unemployment Compensation are up do?

July 30, 2010

What do the people do whose 99 weeks of unemployment compensation do? How do they pay their bills and take care of themselves and/or their families, once no money is coming in?  Are we in for mass homelessness, when they have found no jobs yet?

I wrote this below on as a reply to another blog.

I do not blame this administration for all the unemployment. I have been unemployed for 2 years now. I have been looking for work since before Obama was in office, down sized before his administration. Our problems started back when NAFTA was signed into place. When everything started being made in China and Indonesia, India, Mexico, and imported in, when the call centers were outsourced to Mexico, India, and Philippines. I can’t call without getting someone with an accent I can hardly understand. Our jobs are now over seas and we are the new 3rd world country. I have friends who are trying to feed, house and clothe 5 kids on minimum wage. It is not one persons fault, it is all the big high mighty old mans club fault that is sitting up there on capitol hill that we elected into office over the years. It is whom ever signed the free trade act into law, it is a conglomerate of things, factors. I just wish it would all end soon. All I know is that I need a job and a car. My car is going fast, and w/o a job I can’t get another. I am tired of just getting by. Central Ohio is bad. The crime in Columbus this summer is out outrageous. Something needs to be done about all this really soon.

My 99 weeks are up.  I am still looking for work.  I put in at least 2 applications online a day.  I am glad I only have me to care for and not a family.  I have some money coming in enough to pay rent, but that is about it.  No pocket money, really no gas or transportation money.  If and when I find a job, do I walk or crawl  when I have a disability with my legs?  I know there are those worse off then me.

Just Monday I went to an open house for a Temporary agency, the young lady who interviewed me said the company she was recruiting for was only looking for college age workers.  Can you say DISCRIMINATION.  I let her know this.  She said because they want those that they can pay minimum wage to who can work part time and any hours given to them.  I told her there are people with doctorate degrees looking for such right now.  So the company should not discriminate, and for her to becareful when talking to people she could get the EEO on her company and the one they were recruiting for.

I am wondering what is going to happen to us all out there, are we going to be forgotten?  Or will someone be brave enough to take a stand somewhere, like a march on Washington or on some of our local Capitols.

Will there be tent cities again, I say make a big one on the Washington D.C mall oval.  That should shake things up.  Will people have to move to public lands?  We need some real help, for real people in this country.  If those that are rich could help out, to create jobs or send some of us back to school that would be great.  I would love to go into Healthcare  Management or administration.  A 2 year program in my area is $36,000.  I already have loans I can’t pay back right now, so that is out of the question.  Even an 8 month program for medical coding and billing is $15,000.  Two major hospitals in Central Ohio will be doing big hiring soon.  I have no money to go to school to even be considered.  I have no job to save money to pay for school.  What do those in my situation do? How do we survive.

I keep praying, using my Faith to keep me sane.


Help Cancer Survivors and those still Fighting

June 22, 2010

I have noticed that there are millions of dollars raised for the Race for the Cure and Cancer Research projects.  This is going on while families and survivors are out there starving, using up their savings and having to almost beg for health care, meds, or such and just day to day rent, mortgage, utilities, and food.

I only know of one organization in central Ohio trying to help families survive daily expenses.  This organization is in need of funding because right now they have a waiting list of families in need of help.  If a fraction of the funds given to the American Cancer Foundation, Race for the Cure, the Stephanie  Spelman or Susan G. Komen foundations were given, the organization would be able to help and take care of those in need on the waiting list.  They also would be able to hire people to go do outreach and home care.

I know first had what it is to survive and go into remission.  I am a Leukemia survivor.  At one time I was given 5 months to live.  That was in 2002, and I am still here.  I have worked off and on over the years, but right now I am on disability because I got knees operated on last summer and since have not been able to find a job.  I am volunteering and such, but it does not pay the bills.  Disability pays the rent and utilities but not much else.  This article is not about me, but about an organization that needs funding and help to help others.  So if you can, give into this excellent reputable organization.

They would appreciate your help.  I myself give when I can.

Battle with the Body and Health

May 12, 2010

Been down and out for a while.  Stuck in my own place of pity and sadness.  I have a blood disorder of which saps my energy.  I have been in treatments, on steroids and trying other stuff.  One of my last results is to get the lining of my uterus burned or the whole thing removed.  This procedure is supposed to help.

One thing, in trying to eat and get healthy I have cut so much out of my diet, but I am still gaining weight.  One thing is because of the steroid.  The doc kind of told me how to turn it to my advantage by upping the exercise, and weight training.  My older sister told me to cut most everything out and just try to stick to fruits and vegetables.  This has worked for her.  She is down to 220 and a size 18.  Her normal is a 165 and a size 12 or 14.  My normal is about 185 and a size 16,18.   Right now I am the highest weight I have been in a very long time.  I am  330 lbs.  I just hate it.  I do not hate myself.  But it does make me kind of down because in all I am trying to do the weight keeps going up not down.  I have to start trying hard to implement the things my doctor, sister, family and friends have suggested.  It can’t hurt.  I just get frustrated and don’t want to do anything.  I really need a good support group, but I don’t have the funds to pay for anything right now.

So if anyone out there reads this and has a group suggestion in Central Ohio, or anything else that you think may help, don’t hesitate to share.


Victim or Victor

January 12, 2010

Which are you?  Are you a victim or a victor.

Maybe you should think about it, look into it.  It is time to stop being a victim and be an over comer  and get the victory.  Like the saying if life gives you lemons make lemon-aid.  Start seeing the cup as half full instead of half empty.

Did you know Happiness is a choice?

No one can make you happy or unhappy.  If they do then they have some sort of power over you, and you have let them do it, you have given your power away, and now you have to take it back in order to make the choice for happiness.

Think of all your Blessings, all that you have, and that should make you feel better. Know that there are people out there in the world that are far worse off then you. This should at least make you feel better.
You may think that another person may make you happy or complete your life.
No one can make you happy but you (and maybe your belief system of Faith). You can still be sad with someone if they do no meet your expectations.
Think of things that will lead you to victory, that will help you overcome the obstacles of life, do some reseach if need be and do those things.  You have to be proactive in your own success.
Think of things that make you happy and do them.
Do something to take you mind off your troubles and problems. Sit down and brain storm about possible solutions.
Be a solution or blessing to someone else in this world, you may see your problems disolve away with it.

It is 2010 will bring those old problems and mentality with you?  Why don’t you leave it behind in 2009.  Don’t do it again in 2010.  Get rid of people, friend and circumstance that are a negative influence in your life.  Have a Delete button so to speak and just delete or wipe off your radar.  Block their number from your phone, email, and blogs.  Whatever you have to do to get them out of your life for a while if not for ever.

How many of you are tired of the same old life, the same old thing?
One definition of insanity is doing the same thing and expecting different results.
One way to change your life is to have a Dream, a Vision for your life, Set Goals, and then work toward your Goals. Then never, ever give up.
Keep working toward what you want in life no matter what obstacles may get in your way. Find a way to jump the hurdles and mountains when they come.
Be resilient.

I myself want to be a healthier me.
I have been working out 3X a week for 20 minutes to an hour at the YMCA.  Did you know they have a scholarship program and can go by income, to make it affordable.
I am trying to eat right, by doing a low carb, high protein diet. I do let myself splurge now and then.
I am job hunting, mainly in the nonprofit field.  I would like to work where I can be of help to others or do something purposeful.

What are you doing to improve yourself? What are you doing to make your life better? What changes, improvements do you want to see in you?
Do you have Dreams, Visions, Goals?
Are you happy with your life and where you are right now?
Are you going to be a Victim or VICTOR in 2010?

Are We Not Taught?

January 7, 2010

Here are some passages from the New Century Version of the Bible.  This is one of the closest to the Greek-Hebrew there is.  Just a little reminder to myself and others the mission of Jesus and what he wanted us to do.

Matthew 5

Jesus Teaches the People

1 When Jesus saw the crowds, he went up on a hill and sat down. His followers came to him, 2 and he began to teach them, saying:
3 “They are blessed who realize their spiritual poverty,
for the kingdom of heaven belongs to them.
4 They are blessed who grieve,
for God will comfort them.
5 They are blessed who are humble,
for the whole earth will be theirs.
6 They are blessed who hunger and thirst after justice,
for they will be satisfied.
7 They are blessed who show mercy to others,
for God will show mercy to them.
8 They are blessed whose thoughts are pure,
for they will see God.
9 They are blessed who work for peace,
for they will be called God’s children.
10 They are blessed who are persecuted for doing good,
for the kingdom of heaven belongs to them.

11 “People will insult you and hurt you. They will lie and say all kinds of evil things about you because you follow me. But when they do, you will be blessed. 12 Rejoice and be glad, because you have a great reward waiting for you in heaven. People did the same evil things to the prophets who lived before you.

You Are Like Salt and Light

13 “You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its salty taste, it cannot be made salty again. It is good for nothing, except to be thrown out and walked on.

14 “You are the light that gives light to the world. A city that is built on a hill cannot be hidden.15 And people don’t hide a light under a bowl. They put it on a lampstand so the light shines for all the people in the house. 16 In the same way, you should be a light for other people. Live so that they will see the good things you do and will praise your Father in heaven.

The Importance of the Law

17 “Don’t think that I have come to destroy the law of Moses or the teaching of the prophets. I have not come to destroy them but to bring about what they said. 18 I tell you the truth, nothing will disappear from the law until heaven and earth are gone. Not even the smallest letter or the smallest part of a letter will be lost until everything has happened.19 Whoever refuses to obey any command and teaches other people not to obey that command will be the least important in the kingdom of heaven. But whoever obeys the commands and teaches other people to obey them will be great in the kingdom of heaven. 20 I tell you that if you are no more obedient than the teachers of the law and the Pharisees, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.

Ministry: My thoughts on it.

January 7, 2010

I have a different take on Ministry then I believe most Main Line ministers of today. I was taught that ministry was serving the people, not them serving you.
When asked to speak, teach, or help at a conference, seminar, or convention, I am not one to keep myself separate from those who may need me or ask for my help. Yes, the VIP treatment is usually offered, and part of me loves it. The Jesus part of me is practical, and wants to be with the people. Once, years ago I was teaching at a youth conference, I did not know I was supposed to eat in the VIP/Speakers dinning room or tables, I just went in with the youth/students I was teaching. We had one of those big round banquet tables, next thing I knew instead of the normal 6 to 8 people who can sit around it, there were about 15, listening and getting in on the conversation. There were questions, thoughts and spiritual things shared, that if I were with the other speakers and ministers I could not have given to those who wanted and needed that sort of hands on, caring. So such is my practice when I can do it from then on.
One of my last real ministry projects was in NYC speaking to a group of teens and young adults who can be seen as outcast, or street kids. They were at a youth facility/shelter, I spoke on hope, prayer, and a personal relationship with God the father and Jesus. A lot of these kids had no one but each other, and the staff of the church that ran the shelter, several of these kids were also gay/lesbian. They had come from abusive families and back grounds. Some were just normal kids who ran away, for one reason or the other. The fact still remained they wanted and needed to know someone loved them. After speaking, praying with them, and serving and sharing a meal, I was there to talk, share and hug them. I must have hugged and held 50 kids. My shoulder was wet with tears and who knows what else. But those kids, teens, young adults needed to know and feel the tangible love of God and I am glad I was a big cuddly woman, mother, sister and Minister they needed in that short period of time. Some of them did not dress in fine clothes, some smelled, their hair was not combed in the latest styles, or shoes from Norstroms or SAX 5th Ave. Some had black goth makeup, butch, and ragged jeans. Their hair was died different colors, and they had tattoos and wore chains. How many of you Minsters of God out there can hold, hug and love on the lost children like these of the world. It could be your child. It could have been you if not for the grace of God.
I have seen and experienced so much in my 46 years, and I have been a Minister for almost 30 of those years. I was first ordained by the Apostolic/Pentecostal church around age 18 then later by World Harvest church after attending their Bible College. There is almost nothing I have not seen or heard.
November 2003 to September 2008 in NYC was a lifetime put into a few short years. It taught me to be more like JESUS, to have love and compassion for others and their station in life. It gave me an edge or holy toughness, I got a real education in STREET ministry as well as other areas of LIFE I could not experience in Midwest USA. I wish all Ministers to have experienced such, it would change you, your perception, and how you went about things in the REAL WORLD. It is not about filing in and out of plush sanctuaries and buildings 1 to 3 times a week hearing 3 points, a few songs and a poem. It is about service.

If we are his body, why aren’t his arms reaching, his hands healing, feet walking? Most people I know go to work, church, home take care of the family, round and round the same stuff day in and day out. What is your purpose you were put on this earth for? Everyone one was put here to be a Minister, not just those who go get an education for it. If you call yourself a Minister, then Serve, and don’t be afraid to get dirty. Don’t love people from afar way up in your pulpits, get down and hug someone, touch someone, share a meal, give of your self and substance, PERSONALLY. WHAT WOULD JESUS DO, REALLY?

Questioning Religious Beliefs

January 6, 2010

I am a person who has always questioned everything since the time I could remember.
I was raised 1st Apostolic – Pentecostal by my parents. My Maternal grandparents were Baptist and Jewish, my Paternal grandparents Methodist/Episcopal . Why I am not loony is only by the grace of God. To this day I attend a nondenominational congregation, and don’t care for man made organized religion. I do love God, Jesus, and know that I am a Spirit filled Christian, mostly lead by the H.S, when not doing my own things. You know us humans we get into the flesh often and have to die daily or repent. I am not ashamed to say I have to repent often. One I have a dirty mind, and two, I have a bold tongue.

I can say I was raised in the “Church,” and made my own religious decisions when I became of an accountable age to follow the One true God, and to study on my own. I had so many questions that no one could seem to answer, or they told me I was too young, or should not mess with things that had no baring in this day and age.
I always heard of the “Old Ways, and the Old Path.” No one would ever want to elaborate on these. I have always been drawn to Myth, Legends, and Folklore. I love reading History, Anthropology, Archeology, and Art history. I love historical novels about ancient wars and romances and would take classes in such. I also took the Bible as history, had theology classes, and went to Hebrew school in order to please my family, but because I have a curious inquiring mind.
My grandmother would teach us things, more like a game, or in cooking lessons when I was a girl. She would tell us of God given gifts that run in our family and ancestral line. She told us stories that had been past down through the generations. It all never really made any real spiritual sense until recently.
God has a season and reason for everything, there is also nothing new under the sun. There is a purpose and plan for everyone and everything also. I can see that I am in the Kingdom for such a time as this. To where I am now open to learn more, recall past teachings and to share of that which is in me. I pray the Father/Mother opens the windows of my soul(my mind,will,and emotions)in order to receive what is there for me and also what I am to share with others.

So yes, pray and ask our Creator what he would have you to learn, recall, and do. You are not alone in your quest for knowledge and truth. There are other like minded people out there. We all just have to try to come out of the “Broom Closet,” so to speak and share with each other. It would be nice one day to even get a conference or convention to bring us all together in the future.

So know your beliefs are not wrong, do not let anyone tell you so, there is no real “Bible” backing for it. (make sure they are using a Hebrew or Greek translation when looking for disagreement)

Be Blessed and Full of Salt and Light


A Tonic For The Winter Chill

January 5, 2010

I want to share a recipe given to me by my Maternal grandmother who was a Mountain herbalist. Her ancestry was Native American, Irish, and Jewish.

I just really knew her as my loving Hillbilly, country, grandmother from the black hills of  Tennessee, who loved her country music, blue grass, and giving us yucky potions that worked when we were ill. I can now as an adult look back to see the Celtic, Jewish, and Native American roots all worked together in things I did not understand as a child but now do. I guess one would have called her a witch, but she was a staunch Baptist. This woman knew how to get on her knees and pray heaven down for her family if she needed to. I know she is out there proud watching over me as I embark on studies she was really not allowed to do herself. She did ask me to go to Hebrew school and I did that for her, but she never asked any of the family to carry on her practice of  Herbalology  if that is a word or science if not I just coined it.    My mother has done so, and I myself am learning. But my mother who is a Pentecostal, would not even think of using the term witch, even though my stepfather says the stuff she gives him to drink when he is sick tastes like “Witches Brew.” Ha, Ha.                                                                                                              I am a nondenominational minister. I love to study religions and learn others ways. I am no ones judge, and have always known there was more out there. My grandmother used to tell me I had a gift. It was up to me to use that gift for good when God made it available or the H.S prompted me to use it. I have tried to do such. My pastor at the church I go to knows what I study and how I believe, but he also warned me about sharing with the greater community of my congregation because they just would not understand and judge me. He has tried to get the congregation to look past the Old and New Testements of the Bible, but you know people, they are lazy. They just seem to want to file in and file out every Sunday and just do the minimum required to get by and get into Heaven and escape Hell. Well, some of us know better, and some of us know there is way more to life then Earth, Heaven, and Hell. I do praise God that my pastor is one of them, and if he were FREE, to do what he’d like out in the open he would.
I myself am half way out of the broom closet. I can not come all the way out as of yet, because of the Judgements I would face from others. At least one of my best friends know. We can share these things together. TRUTH and KNOWLEDGE are key factors. I have rambled on enough.

I would like to share one of my grandmother Odessa’s recipies for warding off a winter cold or chill.

I will call it the Vit C Tonic

6 oranges sliced or quartered
3 lemons sliced or quartered
2 large or medium onions sliced
3 cloves
1/2 t of cinnimon
1/2 t of nutmeg

1 cup of Honey

1 quart of Moonshine or Whiskey

Put the 1st 6 ingredients in a dutch oven, stock pot or slow cooker and cover with water.  Simmer on low until reduced by half.  Let sit until almost cool.  Add 1 cup of honey and whiskey/moonshine let sit for about a day to comingle.  Strain/ squeeze out all the juices from the fruit mixture and put into 1 pint or a couple quart containers.  It will be thick and syrupy. Can be mixed with a warm tea not to lose the alcohol, or cold with other beverages.

Use by the tablespoonsful for children or self as a cough syrup.  Too much can put a child to sleep so be careful.

Store in refrigerator over time, or on a cool counter if using regularly.

A New Year, What can I expect

January 1, 2010

Embarking on a new year and decade can be exciting and scary.  I do not have many fears, I put my trust in God.  One thing though is having money and a career.  I moved from NYC back to hometown in September of 2008, I had to have an operation on my knees, bi-lateral replacement.  They gave me almost a whole new leg on my left, the bones were bad and diseased by arthritis so from the knee half up my thigh and from the knee half down my leg is plastic and metal.  50 years ago they would have had to amputate the leg, but  now they just remove the diseased parts and put in plastic and metal.  The wonders of modern medicine.  Well, I need a job here in Ohio.  The unemployment rate is 11%  I do work in the nonprofit arena.  I am a jack of all trades, I can do most anything, have experience in most career areas if not the education.  I think education is good but does not prove you can do the real world work.  Experience proves this.  Doing the actual job.  A person of my experience can’t find too much because employers do not want to pay me what I am worth.  They would rather hire someone fresh out of college who doesn’t know jack about the job.  Most place I volunteer at or do find temporary work, my supervisor is younger then I and has less experience.  But such is life.

I will try not to complain too much in this new year, I will try to expect good things to come my way.  I would like a nice guy to come into my life.  Someone caring, loving, responsible, and that has a decent income.  I need for him to be a believer in God and Spiritual things, writings, ancient teachings and such but not so religious.  Religion is man made.  If you read this and you are such, looking for a beautiful, nice, kind, woman, and do not mind a plump full-figured woman, then write me back.  I do have areas in my life that need work.  We all do, no one is perfect, but we can help each other without trying to control or dominate another.  We are to dominate our place and purpose in life, not another human being.  When one does try to dominate or control another they will find rebellion, and arguments.  That is what someone will find out of me, I do take constructive criticism well and suggestions from others.  If I am really doing wrong and not listening, then pray the the Holy Spirit will lead and guide me into the truth of Gods will, not a man or persons will.  This is where we can mess up, trying to bend another to our own will, not what God has for them.  So you have to test things.

I know for myself, just by prayer and asking that I will get a companion, that my Ministry work and health will thrive and improve but not much else.  I do not like asking about my future too much.  I just like having Faith that it all will work out for my good.  The scriptures do say that “All things work together for good for those who love the Lord and are called according to his purpose.”  So I know if I am in the will of God, then things will work out.  Anyone who is a scholar of the Ancient texts, know what they have to do and be to stay in the will.  One of  the main things is to 1. Love the Lord your God with all your heart, soul, and spirit.  2. Love your neighbor as you love yourself.  All the commandments are wrapped up in these two.  If you are not doing these, then you can expect nothing from God.  He may chose to do otherwise though just on GP, because of being nice.  God gives much, much GRACE to us, even when it is undeserving.

Main things I expect in 2010:

– Improved Health

– A Deeper Spiritual walk

– Better and New Relationships

– Improved Lifestyle of Living

This is what I want.


Indian People Fancinate me

December 28, 2009

I am a movie buff.  I love movies from India.  The people are so kind and nice to each other in the movies, and they always have singing, and or dancing.  There is violence, but not the elaborate cussing and sex scenes of American made movies.  The men and women in these movies are so beautiful and handsome.  I could just eat up some of the guys.  They are dark, with wavy hair, muscular, and dreamy eyes.  They are manly men also, not wimpy, or metro-sexuals like American movies.  There are no cussing drug dealers, no prostitutes walking the beat, or people trying to get ahead by doing to someone before they do them.  Yes, I know these things happen in India, they happen all over the world, but Indian movies try to entertain, take people away from the hum drum reality of their world.  I know Americans, me being one, we are all of a mixed culture and heritage, myself being of 6 different Ancestries, likes the Action- Adventure, stupid comedies of American films.  I go see them.  But it is a nice change to watch a foreign film particularly those of Bollywood.  If I could date a guy of Indian heritage I would, matter of fact I have, when I lived in NYC.  I dated someone who was very good to me, and someone who thought they were going to get over or use me.  So there are good and bad in all cultures.  The guys I dated were very good-looking I must say.  Creamy brown skin, dreamy brown eyes, and just a very light  romantic voice and touch.

I have East Indian in my Ancestry. So I guess it could be why I like them so much, but I also have some of every other culture in my Ancestry also.  I said I was made up of six.  Six is the number of Man if you are into numerology.