New Season

Spring 2012 is a new season in my life.  I am trying to move forward from some devastating things that happened between September of 2011 to January of 2012.

One thing I can say is that I am a survivor.  Not much keeps me down or bound.  If something happens that is negative, I try at all cost to pick myself up as soon as possible and move forward.  It is not hard, but from lessons learned in the past, it is the best thing for me to do.  Way back in the past, I have gone to the dark place, let myself be drugged by doctors, and stayed for long periods of time.  I find it is not worth it.  I have not been in that dark place since the late 1990’s.  I have tried to stay in more positive side and in the light places.  I am in control, and the captain of my own destiny.  I keep my own power, not letting others rule, or take control of me.  I am the product of my own choices.

It is Spring 2012.  I am gardening with friend from my Nemenhah chapter of Condor Eagle  in Southeast Ohio, not to far from Columbus.  Its a 20 minute ride down RT. 62.  I am loving it and it is healing to me.  I am also fellow shipping with ISKCON:  The International Society for Krishna Consciousness and I am enjoying it.  The people, devotees are so nice.  I love the way they worship God.  They are not stuffy, arrogant, snobbish, judgmental, or harp on how one looks.  It is such a breath of fresh air from the Christian church.   I help cook from time to time for pershadom, or the vegetarian feasts.

I am trying to work out my path for the year to come.  Only the Father knows what it is truly to be and I am praying he leads the way.  The Mother Shehkina, Holy Spirit nurtures and guides me.  The Son, Jesus teaches me love and treatment of others.  I am truly blessed.

After what has happened in the recent past, part of me just wanted to give up, go hide and just let life pass me by.  I know better.  After hearing of my resilience and strength of which I didn’t know others were watching so closely, I had actually blessed and helped others be strong by my Faith, actions and reactions during that period.    It is only by the Grace of God, I got through it a little battle scared, but no worse for wear.  One thing, I had good friends, especially my bff Mel.  Without her patience and help, and God speaking to her, I would not have been so strong.  She is my Angel.  I do not know if she knows just how much I appreciate her.  I feel so blessed to have a friend like her.

I am working on me.  I have to reduce my weight.  I have to strengthen my Spirit.  I need physical strength.  I need to get some writing and other work done.  I am moving forward.  My life is getting better.  I am going to do and receive good things.  I am going into higher realms.  I do love life.  Nameste


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