Archive for May, 2010

Battle with the Body and Health

May 12, 2010

Been down and out for a while.  Stuck in my own place of pity and sadness.  I have a blood disorder of which saps my energy.  I have been in treatments, on steroids and trying other stuff.  One of my last results is to get the lining of my uterus burned or the whole thing removed.  This procedure is supposed to help.

One thing, in trying to eat and get healthy I have cut so much out of my diet, but I am still gaining weight.  One thing is because of the steroid.  The doc kind of told me how to turn it to my advantage by upping the exercise, and weight training.  My older sister told me to cut most everything out and just try to stick to fruits and vegetables.  This has worked for her.  She is down to 220 and a size 18.  Her normal is a 165 and a size 12 or 14.  My normal is about 185 and a size 16,18.   Right now I am the highest weight I have been in a very long time.  I am  330 lbs.  I just hate it.  I do not hate myself.  But it does make me kind of down because in all I am trying to do the weight keeps going up not down.  I have to start trying hard to implement the things my doctor, sister, family and friends have suggested.  It can’t hurt.  I just get frustrated and don’t want to do anything.  I really need a good support group, but I don’t have the funds to pay for anything right now.

So if anyone out there reads this and has a group suggestion in Central Ohio, or anything else that you think may help, don’t hesitate to share.